june 28, 2008

it feels like all i ever hear from my dad is bad jokes and things like "clean your room", "clean your car" or "you need a job". i don't remember the last time i heard him say "i love you". i'm just now getting to a point where i just...don't care. due to the fact that he was in the navy, he wasn't here for a majority of my youth; he wasn't even here when i was born. because of his frequent absence, i never developed a strong bond with him. it seems as though the only thing we have between us is his constant struggle to raise me to a standard that i don't want to meet.