july 31, 2009

this will be easier when school starts.

july 27, 2009

lonely.

july 26, 2009

nothing.

july 22, 2009

flowing from one, right into the other.

july 18,2009

today was nice :)

july 17, 2009

this is the 6,755^th day of my life.

july 16, 2009

and this has been another day in the life of Shelby.

july 15, 2009

you know what, dad?

FUCK. YOU.

july 14, 2009

i don't need someone to make me happy - i need someone to make me whole.

july 11, 2009

i'm not excited for college because, really, nothing's changing. i'm still going to live at home, i'm still going to have the same job and i'm still going to be lonely.

july 10, 2009

monotony / can't wait for Nekocon

july 8, 2009

my father is unemployed.

july 1, 2009

my family is so messed up. my mom was going to apply me to a college i told her i didn't want to go to and not tell me about it. my dad always tells me to take responsibility and start acting like an adult, but whenever i try, he treats me like i'm thirteen. they ask me to talk to my sister when she's having a pre-teen freak out instead of talking to her themselves. my dad walks around like he owns everything in the house, even though my mom has a job and contributes. the first thing my dad does when he comes home is start bossing shannon and i around. he tells us not to eat on the couch, but then goes and does it himself because it's "his furniture". we don't talk about the serious stuff; we argue.

i don't think anyone else sees this.