august 30, 2008

self-discovery.

"An oral fixation (also oral craving) is a fixation in the oral stage of development manifested by an obsession with stimulating the mouth first described by Sigmund Freud, who thought infants are naturally and adaptively in an oral stage, but if weaned too early or too late, may fail to resolve the conflicts of this stage and develop a maladaptive oral fixation. In later life, these people may constantly "hunger" for activities involving the mouth.
Oral Receptive: The Oral receptive personality is preoccupied with eating/drinking and reduces tension through oral activity such as eating, drinking, smoking, biting nails, gnawing on plastic bottles. They are generally passive, needy and sensitive to rejection. They will easily 'swallow' other people's ideas."

i bite my lip, my nails and the inside of my cheeks. i chew on straws, plastic tags, plastic lollipop sticks, etc.

august 28, 2008

time flies.

august 25, 2008

it was hard to bring it up, but now that we've talked about it, i feel we've gotten closer.

i love you <33

august 24, 2008

i want you.

august 23, 2008

i don't remove people from my life over silly arguements. you've got to fuck up pretty bad if you want out of my life.

august 20, 2008

"when are you planning on telling them?"

everyone asks me that, but it's not something you do. it's a touchy subject that can't just be blurted out. especially not this soon. i want to be 100% sure of whatever i'm telling them.

now, in saying that, i'd also like to say this: christie is not my experiment. at least, not for that (it's my first serious relationship, anything we do is experimentation). i think about her all the time, i'm not myself when i don't see her, i know i have feelings for her. don't doubt me.

august 19, 2008

How's your heart lately?
it's not currently in my possession.

didn't even have to hesitate.

august 18, 2008

i don't like the style i draw in. it's too...round.

august 17, 2008

sometimes i have days, like today for example, when i just feel really good-looking.

august 16, 2008

any time i freeze or back away, it's not because of you.

august 14, 2008

these are getting harder and harder to write. i can't seem to delve any deeper.

august 13, 2008

i want this school year to start, because i have a feeling this will be the most exciting yet.

august 10, 2008

there are certain people that'd i'd do anything for, no matter the time or place. those people happen to be devon, lashelle, ash and christie.

august 9, 2008

i want live for myself, to be myself and to share myself with others.

august 6, 2008

is number one still true? i feel like i'm being clingy or annoying or...something. it might not come off this way, but i'm always worrying about that. regardless of how much i talk about relationships and give some people advice, i don't really know anything.

august 5, 2008

i'm no dominator.

august 3, 2008

i wish i could wake up in your arms just one more time.