july 31, 2008

for once, i had no idea what to do. the minute i saw that bracelet, my mind froze.

july 29, 2008

two months without too many bumps. let's shoot for three.

july 27, 2008

almost all of my family is thin and fit. some cousins play sports, one was a model (not a huge professional)...you get my point. i always felt so insecure whenever i went to see them, because i was never thin and fit. i didn't play sports. i was reclusive.

this thanksgiving we're going to see them, and i'm determined to show them a new me.

july 26, 2008

i worry, too. so much.

july 25, 2008

last night, i had a dream. i was talking to someone about the whole sarah thing, and then she showed up. she yelled at me, then i told her what i've wanted to say to her ever since that arguement. only, i don't know what that is.

july 24, 2008

i hate not knowing exactly what to do.

july 22, 2008

i guess i'm more affectionate than i thought.

july 20, 2008

in nine days, we'll have made it two months.

july 17, 2008

"the only thing i know for sure is that i'm confused."

july 16, 2008

lately, i haven't been very inspired. i've done a bit of photography, i've made a few decent videos and...that's it. for some reason, nothing's moving up there.

july 15, 2008

when it comes to my best friends, back off.

july 14, 2008

my mind always seems to find it's way back to you before i fall asleep.

july 13, 2008

when i read the thoughts of people like devon or mike, i often get quite envious. the way they look at things, describe things, everything just makes me feel so inadequate. i see things similarly to the way they do, but i'm not skilled enough to convey my opinion in such a nice, intelligent manner. i feel as though i'm regressing.

july 12, 2008

my tastes and opinions change very often. take, forexample, my screenames. i tire of them quickly.

july 10, 2008

i still see myself as i used to be - overweight. even though i'm not, i always seem to still look at myself that way. i'm still a little uncomfortable in just a tank top, in a bathing suit, anything with my stomach showing, etc.

july 9, 2008

i may have never been in a serious relationship before, but i know there are certain things that need to be there; trust, love, communication, listening, etc.

july 8, 2008

there's a time and a place for everything. i believe that one should be mature and reserved when the situation calls for it, but that's no way to live you life. if i'm mistaken for a freshman simply becuase i'm allowing myself to have some fun, that's not my problem.

july 7, 2008

i simply cannot seem to grasp that this is will be my last year of high school. after that, i can finally move on with my life.

july 6, 2008

i am a very physical person. not sexually; i just like that connection.

july 5, 2008

in most situations, it's best to tell me the truth. i'll be much more upset if i find out that you lied. trust is very important to me.

july 3, 2008

i've never been one to heavily depend on others for my own happiness. maybe that's not necessarily a good thing?

july 2, 2008

one hour and eight minutes into july 2nd, and i've come to the conclusion that i wish my voice wasn't limited to katenash-colbiecailiat-thehushsound-reginaspektor stuff.

one hour and nine minutes into july 2nd, and i've come to the conclusion that it doesn't have to be.

july 1, 2008

all relationships are made up of fear, disagreements, worries, memories (be they good or bad), trust, arguements, questions, dependancy, independancy and love.